sappy

So life is pretty much great these days.. I've always known what I wanted in life and everything finally seems to be falling into place. I have a great relationship with God, my family, and my friends. I am with an amazing man who lights up my whole life. I have a job I enjoy, and I am getting to live life the way I want to live it.

It's really great to know you have someone who loves you as much as you love them and is willing to back you up. I have always been a person who gives a 110%, especially when it comes to matters of the heart and to know I am with someone who is the same way is a great feeling. To know I can count on someone as much as they can count on me means the world it's like having the other half that makes me whole.. sounds corny, but it's a good feeling.

For a long time I felt sort of lost in life, I kept holding on to the past trying to figure out my future, but realized by holding on to the past, the future was never going to happen for me. My past has made me who I am, so I am greatful for everything that has happened in life (the good, the bad, and the ugly). Once again I will reference myself and all the cliches, everything happens for a reason.. seriously.. and sometimes you have to let someone in. They can't sweep you off your feet until you actaully let them into your heart.. but once that happens, once you open up and let them in.. your done for.. and it's the greatest feeling in the world.
I talk to my friends and family and they tell me (not that I need to hear it) but they tell me how happy I am and how they can see a positive change in me... It's a weird, yet excellent, feeling, to know what it's like to be loved as much as you love and to see that everyone else sees it too. That's when you know it's really right I think.. when it sort of sneaks up and than shines thru.
I've also learned just how important the small things are(I guess I should say I am reminded), the things I want and need in life don't cost money.. they aren't material.. to me it's the hand holding, the accepting of my dog (anyone who really know me, and Lucy, knows this is a HUGE deal), it small kisses, and when I feel like crying for no reason - giving me a hug and making me laugh, it's all the silly moments, and sitting in silence just leaning on one another.
I think I have always known what love is and I have been in love more than once, but I think it took a special person to make me realize how love should really be and what it shouldn't be.

So I am sure some of you reading this are thinking how sappy I am and how I tend to go on and on about the same topics.. but hell I am happy and I am in love.. what more can I ask for! I figure share the good feelings and thoughts!!