Roller Coaster

Crazy and stressful... life has been a roller coaster the past few weeks and I am not a big fan of roller coasters. I mean the idea of them are fun and they have the exciting moments, but in the end I feel sick when I get off.

Well stress and craziness is just like that. You have the exciting and fun stuff and you have the moments where you feel like throwing up.

I like my life, I enjoy the things and people who are in it. I like the daily challenges and when it gets all shaken up, but at the end of the day I like curling up on the couch with a certain someone and not having a care in the world.

The past few weeks I feel like I haven't been enjoying life the way that I should and what its been offering has been too roller-coastery.(I'm probably just being a baby and over-sensitive) It started with a bad situation... then a few good ones... then a few disappointments, then nothing of importance, then a small complication, followed by some more good, then a little more complication... and then the waiting game. Oh the waiting game, this is where I have to wait to see if things will go back to "normal" if there will be a "new" normal or if the roller coaster isn't over.

I think sometimes I just need to vent and I start to feel better. (Thanks to those of you who have listened during this process) But when I look at the big picture, which I try to do often and try not to be a baby and suck it up. Things are pretty good.

The Good:
I have God
I have a fiancée who I am head over heels in love with, who treats me like a princess, and even when he is a big ol' pain in the butt I know I am #1 in his life (even if I pretend other-wise b/c I want to be a brat).
I have a job that pays the bills
I have a house and two dogs
I have "stuff"
I have family and friends who are supportive
I'M GETTING MARRIED IN LESS THEN A YEAR
etc...

I mean for being 27 what else can I ask for @ this point in my life... ok I could answer that w/more "things" but I think I am doing pretty good.

So I guess I just needed to type it all out so I can get over my pity-party and focus on the really good things that are happening in my life:
Two big things: Fulfilling(at least getting some kind of experience) a life long passion and marrying my best friend :-)