The Last Day of 2008

So 2008 has come to an end and what a year it has been! I have never been a big fan of change, but so much has changed in my life in the past year, actually the past few, but I have talked about those changes before so we'll focus on the now.

I have found some really good people to call true friends this year, people who I can turn to and complain with and who will shake their heads at me, but still love me. They never judge me and they never underestimate me. The funny thing is they have been my friends for a while, but now I can look at them and realize my life would be so different if they weren't around. I have learned to trust them with everything I have. There are three in particular (you know who you are) who have made it possible for me to be where I am right now. That have helped me through tough times, even if I don't always listen. They have and continue to make a difference in my life and isn't that what it's all about...

I have formed an amazing bond with my sister and her family. When I was growing up I wanted more than anything for my sister and I to be best friends and about 10 years ago we finally started getting the bond that is both beyond sister and friends and with everything that has happened this year we have perfected that bond. I know I have helped her out a lot over the past year (past 6 months for sure) but she probably doesn't realize she has given me so much just by making me feel like I belong.
She has let me be a part of her immediate family and makes me feel like I have a role there. She has made it possible for me to bond with my niece and nephew in a way I never thought I would. She has given me a brother who I don't think of like a brother in law, but as a true brother whom I respect and love and who has become a major part of my life and family.

Then there is my older brother and his family. He led me to something I have been missing out on for maybe my whole life. I was always a Christan, I have never faltered on my beliefs, but I never really practiced what I preached. He opened doors for me that allowed me to be a part of a great Christan family and has led me to God in a whole new way. I guess my sister had a part of that two. I never thought you needed to go to a building to have God in your life and I that can be true to an extent, but when you find the right building (or buildings) and worship leaders it can change your whole perspective!

I am always learning from my family and friends trying to take the positives about them and apply them to my life and take the negatives and learn from them. I love that I have a close-nit group of people who I can love and who loves me back. I sometimes for get that, but when looking back I can see just how important they all really are.

There are a few people I didn't mention and they need to know that even though they didn't get a mini-paragraph they mean the world to me and they have had an impact on my life... so if your reading this don't think that I am not thinking about you while thinking over the past year...

So I am ready for 2009, I want to make a lot more changes in my life and continue to grow in myself and in God. I always thought I knew exactly what I wanted out of life, but now I know that I really don't because I am not entirely sure who I am. I know the base of me, but I need to figure out what is right for me in life so I can figure out what I want and need.

So here's to 2008 and a new start in 2009... I know so cliche!