Acceptance

Acceptance –noun 1. the act of taking or receiving something offered. 2. favorable reception; approval; favor. 3. the act of assenting or believing: acceptance of a theory. 4. the fact or state of being accepted or acceptable.

I have found that I do not accept things that I don't want to hear. I try to hang onto my idea of what I want it to be. I have an idea and image of how things should be and if they aren't the way I picture them, I ignore what's right in front of my face. But I am finally realizing, or accepting if you will, that it is what it is.
I can't change things, I have no power in that area. I ask myself and God why it is the way that it is, and I am still waiting for that answer, but I know it will come when he is ready to give it, or maybe when I am ready to listen to it.

I am not always a big fan of change, I like my little world to stay the way it is. Every time I try to change something in my life it just doesn't seem to work out very well for me. Probably because it takes me a while to adjust. There are some changes I welcome and others that I would prefer never happen, but I guess that's common.

My problems and worries are typically so insignificant, but they roll around inside me and I dwell on them, making them worse then they are. It's sort of annoying. When I look at the big picture, does it really matter. What's the point in worrying about yesterday when it's today?

I am good at giving advice and relating to people's problems and insecurities, but when it comes to my own, I cry like a baby and want to crawl into a corner. Why is it so easy to give people advice and help, but not take it and listen to it myself.

Oh the questions we probably all ask ourselves.

So I am working on acceptance and taking things as they are. This doesn't mean I will accept everything that is given to me, it's just not always my nature. But I will work on it. Especially when it's strait forward in black and white.