Lots of thoughts

So I have come to the conclusion that I love too much and I forgive to easily. I am one of these people who wears her heart of her sleeve, I will tell everyone pretty much anything they want to know about me and I am a very giving person. I have spent 95% of my life trying to make everyone else happy. I am a true people pleaser and I have a tendency to put everyone else's needs over my own. It's just who I am and how I work. I am not complaining about it, it is what it is. The problem is some people take advantage of it, sometimes without even knowing their doing so(at least I let myself think that). The funny thing is I know they are doing it, but I let them. I just want all the people that I care about to be happy, it's in turn what makes me happy. But every now and again, it knocks me in the head, because when will things start to go the way I have always dreamed they would go. I am a fairly patient person (at least when it comes to some things) and I don't really "expect" anything from anyone, but sometimes I just wonder when it will be my turn.
Now don't get me wrong, I am not whining here, I have been blessed with great things in my life and I wouldn't change my life (at least most parts of it) But every now and again I want it to be my turn. As I write that I think, gees Mel, u sound selfish.
I've always told myself if you are upfront and honest with people, love with all your heart, are there for all the people that matter, then it will pay off in the end. You will have contributed to the happiness of everyone you love, you will have made a difference. But do I make a difference or am I just that push over that people end up feeling sorry for. And if I am that push over am I willing to just deal with that, because I made that decision somewhere along the line. I am not always a push over but I to those who are close to me I tend to be! UGH...
So do I deal with it and not change or do just change and wipe the slate clean and pull myself out of the push over status I've given myself... hmmm something to think about!